2a: More About Me
To help evolutionists that have difficulty with the idea that I am not a Biblical creationist:
First of all, to repeat, I am not attached to any organizations. I am not a Biblical Creationist, I am a philosophical ID’er. It is completely obvious, that there is an immense amount of intelligence in nature. I know evolutionauts like to cover their eyes and pretend that there isn’t. But that fact cannot be avoided. Our best engineers can’t come close to mimicking any organ in our bodies, and mankind most likely never will. Evolutionists frequently tell me that the eye is poorly designed. That thought is so unbelievable, it’s not worth discussing. Vision is an immense natural miracle, and because people need glasses, evolutionists try to taint that miracle. This is the ultimate of looking a gift horse in the mouth.
I am very much a nerd inside even though I have always been addicted to sports. So I am a nerd-athlete? I love science of all types, particularly astronomy, and the origin of life and species. Absolutely the two greatest puzzles in the universe; real puzzles inside of an immense puzzle. When I was a kid (about 9) I learned about the speed of light and what a light year was. And that was it. I was hooked. I actually wanted to be an astrophysicist, but reality set in and dentistry won out.
I was raised in a very Christian family. My grandfather was a Methodist minister. My dad should have been. He and my mom were very devout. We frequently had Bible study and “devotions” at night after dinner. Every minute was torture for me. The were much more fun and interesting things to do. I remember my friends patiently waiting outside of our windows while we were dragging out our Bible study. I would wink at them. They would smile, and be patient most of the time.
Of course we attended church every Sunday. Until I was an early teen, I believed that God created everything in six days; that Adam and Eve were the first two humans on earth, and that Noah and his family surely collected all of the animals two by two, and made an ark which saved the all of the animals in the world and Noah’s family from a great flood. All other life on earth not saved by Noah’s family was drowned. In my early childhood and teen years I was very much a Biblical creationist. But as my thinking became more mature and independent, I began having lots of trouble with the whole idea. Outwardly I did a good job of acting for my family. I wanted to keep my dad happy. He would surely have been very upset if he knew the thinking that went on in my head in regards to the Christian faith he had so thoroughly taught me. I have always been a skeptic. But mixed in with my desire to please my dad, I was afraid to think too negatively as I was told that hell would be my reward if I didn’t believe. I had to keep my parents happy and not give myself a ticket to hell at the same time. So I pretty much went along.
When I went to college my dad told me to watch out for those “evolutionists” that will teach that we came from monkeys. (At that time he didn’t realize that he and I were not on the same page. I was still a good actor.) But monkeys? I had to laugh at that one. My dad told me the professor would probably have a grey beard, and stand up in front of the class and tell us the monkey story. I really couldn’t believe it. And MONKEYS? On my first day at university, in my first paleontology class……there he was; that evil guy my dad warned me about. He DID have a gray beard! Just like dad said! I felt like I was looking at some sort of crazy evil entity. Was he going to tell us about MONKEYS?
Early in our first hour he asked, “How many in this class believe that Adam and Eve were the first two humans on earth?” Along with about half of the class, I raised my hand proudly. Proudly because this guy was either evil or nuts. I was waiting for the monkey fable. He didn’t mention monkeys, but he did mention apes, and how we were similar, and from common ancestors, and…….. I loved what he said. For me, that was it. I was fascinated. I had finally found out how we got here! It wasn’t Adam and Eve just like I thought! It was a slow process of changes that added up over time. It made complete sense. I was nearly an instant fascinated believer. At the end of the week the professor asked for hand of those who now think Adam and Eve were the first two humans on earth. Not a single hand went up. He had done his job well. And because of him, I spent many years being supporter, and studier of evolution. I was sold. The professor with the gray beard created another defining moment in my life, just like Art and I had in the fourth grade.
Then, a few years ago when I was in the Field Museum in Chicago and had the experience I describe on p. 2. I started getting those same damn “uh-ohs” that I had with Adam and Eve. It’s really a strange feeling when something that you so strongly believe starts to crash. And, this was my second time around!
I have been on both sides of the battle, and believed thoroughly in both Creationism and Darwinian evolution during different periods of my life. I have a pretty good feeling for what both are about both emotionally and intellectually. But now I am in a funny sort of funk. Here I am, fascinated with the subject, and much farther away from any answer than I was since my visit to the Field Museum. To me the Puzzle is even bigger. And, I am very open minded to good science. If I could see that Darwinian evolution could have truly been the “source”, I would modify my thinking. But, the more I study the subject, the more I am convinced Darwin was wrong. And I really have no answer or idea what is right. I read “The Blind Watchmaker”. I reviewed it on this site. https://evillusion.wordpress.com/thinking-about-organ-ev-and-a-blind-watchmaker/ It had many incredibly interesting sections. But after reading it, I would swear that Dawkins himself was trying to prove that Darwin was not possible. Check out Dawkin’s quotes in the last question on my Ev 101 test. https://evillusion.wordpress.com/a-suggested-final-exam-for-the-dover-and-all-teachers/
As far as Creationism goes: I try to think in reverse. If I were an intelligent and loving God, how would I make an the earth and place life and people on board? Maybe I would make a big ball, and put a huge light bulb above it and give the people eyes so they can see where they are going with the legs that I give them; and ears to hear, arms to handle things, and brains to think. But I wouldn’t make trillions of other suns. I would kind of focus here on earth. I wouldn’t make the inhabitants of this planet spend hundreds of thousands of years with deadly illnesses, starvation, wars, thieves, murderers, tumors, and other horrors. And I can’t imagine me as God, concocting millions of different species, then somehow reaching down and placing those millions of species in habitats that I chose for them. Why would I make things so complicated and difficult? No sense going into more detail on this subject. I am not a Biblical Creationist.
So, hopefully this gives a very clear idea of my thinking. The most difficult time I have discussing this subject as real science with evolutionists is the fact that they cannot get off the idea that I have some sort hidden agenda. I began writing this blog only to keep notes on what I found in researching the subject. Most of my research was done on pro-evolution websites and books. The blog grew. My agenda is good and objective science. And every time I give a challenge that evolutionists can’t answer, they go to that. “You and your creationist buddies……” which makes any kind of scientific debate impossible.
Good debate can be very intellectually stimulating, and fun in many ways. This is a fun subject, and very mentally stimulating to think about. The worst kind of debate is when the parties call their “opponents” names or use statements like“You are nothing but a creationist shill” as one evolutionist called me. There is no way to combat that kind of communication. These “arguments” kill good discussion and good science.I hope this will make my stance very clear. Maybe that will help a little. Probably not.